LOVE in the Phi - Null Round 1: 4 Wind Discard

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Pairing/Characters: KinKi Kids, Akame, UchiRyo, OC, (probably some side-pairings)
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: Don't own the JE boys (duh!), but OCs are mine and I created the story
Warnings: bad language, making out, bit angsty
Multi-Chapter


Note: As a special for lilly0 I'll post this little RyoUchi-only part. It was heart-wrenching to write this. I hope you'll like it anyway. And just in case anyone is wondering: Scenes that give the reader information Kajima does nto have/get in the story will be posted under the section "Null round", meaning no winning situation for the MahJongg player.


Note 2: You will find the same story twice in this, in different POVs. Ah, and I'm sorry if the layout is a bit weird. I had to use a different format than I usually do, and that caused some trouble. I hope it's still okay.


Intro: So... Ryo knew all about Uchi's affair with Koichi... or did he?

~Ryo~




Ryo took a deep breath. He knew he couldn’t keep standing outside the door forever. But then, he was afraid of going in there. He never would have imagined he’d ever feel this way. Feeling reluctant about getting home. He had been out, doing his usual once-at-least-every-ten-days clubbing, happy for once, to get some distraction. It wasn’t that he usually disliked being out with his friends. It was just a bit unnerving, knowing that people are watching you at all times, every step you take, everybody you talk to – the girl you hook up with. Because when going out, you hook up.

It’s not like you have to do a lot – some flirting, a drink, and the girls fall easily enough. Mainly you get rid of them in the end just as easily too, which made things easier. Not that he was keen on actually getting involved. At times it couldn’t be helped, but mainly it was all about the being seen. An image as playboy. He still thought it didn’t suit him. Jin could sell the image well. But him? He’d rather be home with... He winced slightly. Hiro. The one who was waiting for him right behind that door. The only one he loved. The one he always wanted to get home to.

He’d always thought of the other as his other half. Just... some time ago he found out that the other did not feel the same about him. He still remembered the day he first found his lover lying to him. It hurt so much, he didn’t know what to do. And then, some time later... and then earlier that day... He still couldn’t believe it. He had known that Uchi was cheating – for a while. But Koichi? KOICHI?! Why on earth...? He shook his head, sighing deeply. There was no helping it. With a determined look on his face he opened the door.

“Tadaima,” he called out.

“Okaeri nasai,” he heard his lover’s reply.

He felt sick. How should he face the other? How should he look at him? Talk to him?

“Hey,” Uchi smiled at him as he stood in the living room door. “How was work?”

“Ah, tiring,” Ryo answered shortly. “Yet again, we’re just a big mess.”

“Mah, you’re doing great,” Uchi encouraged him.

“I’m not saying we’re not doing well,” Ryo told him. “It’s more like... we’re just a mess. I mean, you work in such a well-organised group...”

“Hey, I’m sure you’re gonna be okay,” Uchi reassured him, giving him a light kiss.

“Hiro,” Ryo said silently.

The other looked at him lovingly.

I know that you’re cheating. I know. I’ve known for a while. And today I learned that it’s Koichi. Koichi of all people. Why are you doing this to me?!

“I love you,” Ryo whispered.

“Aw,” Uchi made, kissing him again, more fully this time.

Ryo let him, enjoying the closeness. Yet, there was that sting in his heart.

Do you kiss him like this too? Do you caress him like you do with me? Are you tender to him? Or is it just about sex? What is it that you want? What is it that you need that I can’t give you? Why... do you need him?

Ryo could feel his lover’s hands sliding over his body. It felt nice. Warm. So much better than the cold nagging feeling he’d had before. Gripping Uchi’s shirt, he dragged his lover off towards their bedroom...

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~Uchi~

Uchi sighed, checking the clock yet again.

Past midnight... He could have called.

Another glance to his mobile that was lying on the table. He bit his lip hard. It wasn’t that he bothered Ryo coming home late. It was that his lover didn’t even tell him when he’d be home, or what he was doing out. Or who... He sighed. The fate of popular idols – the need to be seen. He knew, of course, that it was part of the job. Just why was it that Ryo absolutely didn’t seem to mind? Why did he come home to him, smelling of smoke and sweat and...

“Tadaima,” he finally heard his lover call from the hallway.

“Okaeri nasai,” he answered.

Sometimes he hated himself for it, but as soon as Ryo was through their door, he immediately forgot entirely about his worries and annoyance and just wanted to hold the other in his arms.

“Hey,” he greeted the other cheerfully. “How was work?”

“Ah, tiring,” the other replied. “Yet again, we’re just a big mess.”

Ryo looked tired, he thought. Probably a hard day. Uchi knew that he always worried a lot about both his groups’ issues and it could be very tiring. Promoting for one group, recording with the other, song writing, rehearsals, shootings...

...clubbing...

“Mah, you’re doing great,” Uchi tried to cheer the other up.

“I’m not saying we’re not doing well,” his lover retorted, sounding a bit pained. “It’s more like... we’re just a mess. I mean, you work in such a well-organised group...”

Uchi felt a sting rushing through his body. Why did Ryo have to bring that up? He didn’t want to think of the agency, when he was with his partner. He didn’t want to think of work – of the people there, of Koichi, of...

“Hey, I’m sure you’re gonna be okay,” he said reassuringly.

He wanted those images out of his head. Not knowing what else to do, he kissed Ryo. He didn’t want to think. He wanted to forget. The images, the pain, the longing...

“Hiro,” he heard a soft whisper against his lips.

Ryo’s voice... It always made him smile and feel at ease.

“I love you.”

“Aw,” he answered, his feelings doing back-flips.

How can you do this to me? You stay out for nights going, you come home and have the smell of perfume all over you, but the moment you hold me, kiss me, you make me feel like there is nothing in the world, but you and me. Why is it? Why do you come back and make me feel like this? It’s not fair. The moment I see your face I can’t hate you, but when you’re away I feel so miserable, I... I don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t know what I’m doing. How can I make you see me? Do you still love me? What do you feel when you kiss me? Can I make you happy?

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On the one hand, this is heart-breaking. On hte other I can't help thinking that guys can be so stupid. Why is it they totally don't talk to each other? >_<  For now I can only hope that the situation will improve. But hey, Ryo has an alabi now. He didn't know that Koichi was the other guy. Just that Kajima doesn't know about that yet. ^^" Please look forward to more details. ^^

Hand 3

*coming soon*