authors_paradise | Kagen no tsuki - Part 2: How do you know fate?

Pairing: KinKi Kids (AU characters)
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: Don't own KinKi Kids, or anything JE-related
Warnings: bad language, sexual situations, prostitution, slight angst
Setting: AU
Multi-Chapter

Intro: Unable to forget about the strong character of Hikaru, Go finds himself rather clueless as to what to do. And then his father come and takes him to the theatre. It's inevitable that the two boys meet again, and whie Go is still wondering whether he likes the idea, or not, things develop into a direction he never would have imagined. As he tries to work his way through the entire mess, Hikaru finds himself rather confused about the situation and his own reactions and behaviour, which both seems slightly off to himself.

Notes: Yay, update! Took a while, but it's loooooooong. Hope you like! <3

“I’ll be going to Kyoto tonight,” Kurakawa announced out to the entire table.
His wife looked up from her meal in surprise.
“During the running week?” she asked, sounding a bit concerned.
Go stiffened and shifted uncomfortably on his seat. He practically dipped his head into his bowl of rice, hoping he would not get involved into the conversation and at the same time hating his father for going to that place – to that boy again. To add to his anger, his efforts to stay clear were in vain.
“Well, I have no business tomorrow,” Kurakawa said in an even voice. “And the theatre is presenting a new play. You don’t mean to say you disapprove?” he asked his wife, sounding a bit too harsh.

“No, dear,” his wife immediately assured. “That is not my place. I was merely surprised, because you never do that.”
“I certainly don’t never do it, because I’m doing it tonight,” Kurakawa growled out.
“Of course, dear,” his wife nodded quickly.
“I wish to take Go out,” the head of the family stated firmly and the addressed boy almost jumped up from his place.
He gulped down his rice and looked at his father wide-eyed.
“What – me?” the boy asked in a squeaky voice.

“Yes,” his father nodded. “You said you wanted to come with me some time.”
Go remembered that and even though it hadn’t exactly been a promise, he couldn’t back out of it anymore.
“Well, yes,” the boy stuttered out. “It’s just… tonight, I mean… it’s a bit sudden.”
“What kind of nonsense is that?” his father demanded. “I’m not sending you to a camp, or something. I’m taking you to Kyoto – how would you wish to prepare for that?”
“New garments?” the boy offered in a small voice.
“Well,” his father mused, “if that is your wish, we can go early and find something for you. It will be your birthday next week, so we might as well go for a little luxury.”

“Oh, dear, that is really very kind of you,” his wife said with a smile. “Ne, Go? Isn’t it good that your father is so gracious to you?”
“Y-yes, thank you, father,” the boy said quickly, bowing his head almost onto the tabletop.
“Very well, then,” Kurakawa said happily. “Yuri, go and make Go’s horse ready. We wish to leave soon after dinner.”
“Certainly dear,” the woman said with a smile as she got up and left.
“You will enjoy it,” Kurakawa promised his son. “The theatre is an incredible place. Kabuki is truly a very fine art. And our theatre has some very fine actors too.”

Go merely nodded. Inside he felt totally shaken up. It had been two weeks since his first big visit to Kyoto and ever since then that place had kept lurking somewhere in his head. The theatre had looked impressive. The actors… He gulped as he remembered his first encounter with an entertainment person. A wild, impulsive, rough kind of person, which had scared him a little – but who had also shown kindness towards him, which had confused him. They were strange, those people. And he couldn’t help wondering what might happen if he met that person again.

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“I’m so glad you recovered so well,” Katsumi said with a smile.
Hikaru looked up from his bowl of soup. “Well, you’ve been pampering me for the past two weeks, so naturally I would get better.”
“I did no such thing,” Katsumi demanded, even as a blush painted his cheeks.
“No, you did not,” Hikaru grinned. “You just cooked for me, got my medicine, changed my sheets,...”
“Okay, okay,” Katsumi waved him off, “I get it. No need to thank me, by the way. Believe me, I’ve learned my lesson and it won’t happen again.”

Hikaru smiled softly at his room mate. “Katsumi-kuuuuuun,” he dragged out sweetly as he got up to give the other a warm hug. “You know I love it when you spoil me.”
Katsumi kept pouting until he got a little peck on his lips that made him smile.
“You just know how to flirt your way out of everything,” Katsumi stating, shaking his head.
“Well, I’m an expert,” Hikaru winked at him.
Katsumi sighed. “Acting tough again?”

Hikaru blinked at him. “Hey, it’s not really… well, it’s okay most of the time,” he said with a shrug. “I mean, I’m the most-requested, and that’s something. Plus, my little second job buys most of our food.”
“I’m not complaining,” Katsumi told him sternly, “I’m just saying that it certainly does things to you.”
“Sometimes,” Hikaru admitted, but kept his eyes slightly averted from his friend. “And it’s good that I have you to hold onto. But it’s really okay for the main part.”
“Well, that’s good then,” Katsumi nodded, closing in on the other again. “You only have one performance today, right?”
Hikaru nodded, allowing himself to be pulled into warm arms again. Katsumi smiled and placed another, firmer kiss onto his lips. Hikaru smiled at him.

“Love me a bit?” Katsumi asked timidly.
“Don’t you have somewhere to go?” Hikaru asked playfully, before nipping at the other’s lips.
Katsumi sighed in delight. “Oh, I can do my cleaning later,” he said casually, pulling Hikaru closer still.
“Kajiyama-senei won’t be pleased,” Hikaru tried to reason one more.
“It’s okay,” Katsumi assured him and silenced any further arguments with his lips on Hikaru’s.

Sure enough, the slightly older boy let the issue go and concentrated on the other’s lips. Hikaru enjoyed kissing. It was smooth and soft and warm and there were smooth hands sliding over his body almost carefully. He sighed into the kiss, returning the favour and caressing Katsumi’s back in tempting strokes. The younger boy too sighed pleasurably, licking Hikaru’s lips tentatively and was happily granted entrance. Stroking their tongues inside and their hands out, they enjoyed being close, the warm and intimate feeling of sharing their deep kiss. When they parted they both felt a bit flushed. Hikaru had his eyes still closed and Katsumi leaned in again, covering his friend’s face in light kisses. Slowly, he moved down bit by bit, finally attaching his lips to Hikaru’s neck.

The older boy moaned slightly, one of his hands shooting up to grip Katsumi’s hair and guiding him a bit up and down his neck, around his collar bone and he felt like he was floating with the pleasurable touches. As Katsumi drew back, he smiled at him and moved in to return the favour. Katsumi tilted his head willingly to allow him access to his sensitive throat. As Hikaru moved up and down in light nips and kisses, he could feel Katsumi shudder beneath his hands. He smiled. This was something they only shared with each other. It was soothing, intimate… pure. Katsumi moaned in surprise as Hikaru went for his ear lobe, licking and sucking at it.
“Hikaru,” Katsumi gasped breathlessly.

Without thinking about it – without even noticing it, he let his hands slip under Hikaru’s shirt, pulling it up slightly and roaming the other’s hot skin. Hikaru let him for a few seconds, but then suddenly froze and pulled away. He looked bewildered at Katsumi.
“What are you doing?” he asked, sounding a bit sad.
“N-nothing,” Katsumi stuttered. “Sorry, I… I didn’t mean to. Well, I didn’t even notice…”
“You know I don’t do that,” Hikaru told his friend.
Katsumi sighed. “I know. Just…” He looked helplessly at his friend. “I mean, you don’t have to. I won’t ask you. But… if I tell you it’s okay, why don’t you do it with me? It would definitely be okay,” Katsumi explained, hoping he’d hit a nerve.

Hikaru just firmly shook his head, though. “I’ve told you,” he stated sternly, “that I don’t want to do this… to people I like.”
Katsumi smiled sadly. “Not even when I tell you I want you to?”
“Believe me, you don’t,” Hikaru told him, still shaking his head. “You don’t know how it feels. It hurts bad. And I don’t want to hurt you.”
Katsumi bit his lip, eyes dropping to the floor. “I’m sure you won’t hurt me,” he said in a small voice.

“I won’t,” Hikaru confirmed. “So I’ll be off now. And you should get to work too. Don’t piss your master off too bad. I still want to go to that temple for New Year’s prayer.”
Katsumi sighed in defeat. “Fine, then. See you later.”
“Later,” Hikaru said with a smile, giving his friend another fleeting caress on the shoulder, before he flew out the door.
Katsumi looked after him with a sigh, but still smiling.

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“Hikaru-kun,” Saito called out. “Your turn.”
“Yes, yes,” Hikaru called back hurriedly. “Come on, attach my comb already,” he demanded to the stage helper, who was fumbling with his wig.
“Right,” the boy mumbled. “Hold on… okay, done.”
As soon as he got his okay, Hikaru shot up and ran to the stage. He waited a few seconds for his cue and then, taking a deep breath, he went out into the stage light.

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Go was completely mesmerized. He couldn’t help staring. There was this fragile looking person standing on stage, wrapped in a visibly worn, but yet bright and colourful kimono, a fan in each hand, delicate fingers playing with the items and giving him ideas of what other things such skilled fingers might be capable of. Head held up high, the crimsony red lips moved tentatively to produce an enticing song with a most beautiful voice. Hikaru was indeed an attraction. Even with the strong make-up and the costume Go had recognised him immediately. He didn’t understand why this boy wasn’t the star of the play. He was by far the most outstanding in the cast.

While he had been reluctant to go at first, Go actually bemourned the end of the play, knowing he had to leave and could not look at Hikaru anymore. The boy had only had about thirty minutes on stage as it was, but Go wouldn’t mind watching the play again and again, just to admire Hikaru’s art. As he left the theatre with his father he thought for a second about making an excuse to stick around and hopefully see the boy again. But that was completely out. He wouldn’t know what to say anyway – he didn’t have any friends anywhere near, nor any other activities. Not to mention that his father would not leave him alone there. Much to his surprise his father did not go back the way they had come when they had arrived, but turned into a small sideway. Go blinked in surprise.

“Father?” he asked timidly, but couldn’t even phrase his thoughts before he was interrupted.
“Kurakawa-sama,” he heard a voice calling out. “We did not expect you tonight.”
“I was very curious about the new play,” Kurakawa explained. “So I didn’t want to wait too long to see it.”
“Oh, you flatter us too much,” the strange boy said with a deep bow. “I hope you enjoyed it, then?”
“I certainly did,” Kurakawa assured him. “And so did my son,” he added, presenting Go with a gesture.

Go merely blinked at the boy, who first shot him a look of surprise, but then smiled brightly again and bowed deeply once more.
“It is an honour to meet you,” he said respectfully.
“Say, Saito-kun,” Kurakawa spoke up again. “Can I see Hikaru? He still seems a little bit sick.”
“Oh, he’s doing fairly well,” Saito assured him. “But if it is your wish, I will certainly let you confirm it with your own eyes.”
“That would be good,” Kurakawa said with a nod.

Saito nodded right back and went into the building through the back door. Go looked around warily. He felt like a thief lurking around, doing something sneaky. At the same time he felt his guts twist. He knew his father paid for that boy’s sex services. But did he have to do it so openly? And while he was standing right there? Was he expected to wait for him now until he was done, so they could go home together? His thoughts were disrupted as the door flung open again. As he looked up he started as this time it was Hikaru, who came out the door and stood onto the street.

“Kurakawa-sama,” the boy greeted his father and he sounded almost joyful.
Go felt the urge to throw up. That kind of episode was simply disgusting.
“Hikaru-kun,” Kurakawa said with a smile. “It’s good to see you in good health again.”
“Thank you, Kurakawa-sama,” Hikaru stated, also smiling brightly. “I hardly deserve you considering my condition so seriously.”
“Oh, it’s nothing special,” the man assured him. “Again, I’m glad to see you.”
“I wasn’t expecting to see you tonight,” Hikaru admitted. “But I’m happy that you came. Why don’t you…”

He broke off, tilting his head slightly, because he noticed only in that moment that something was moving in the corner of his eye. When he focused on it, he blinked in surprise.
“Oh,” Kurakawa said as he followed Hikaru’s gaze. “I brought my son tonight. If I’m not mistaken you’ve met him before?”
“Oh, I have,” Hikaru nodded, quickly recovering and bowing to the boy. “I’m glad to see that you got back to your father alright.”
Go merely nodded vaguely. He was still feeling slightly sick.
“So, Kurakawa-sama,” Hikaru changed the topic back to business – or so he thought. “Is there anything that you wish?”

“Actually,” Kurakawa stated looking back at his son, “I was wondering if you could give my son a tour.”
Both boys looked at him with wide eyes.
“Eh?” Go gasped out, feeling panic rising in him.
“Your son?” Hikaru asked, blinking.
“It will be his birthday next week,” Kurakawa explained, “so I thought I’d get him something special.”

“Oh, so you’ll be 22 soon?” Hikaru mused, a grin slowly forming on his lips. “Well, I’d certainly love to be of service. I already promised you a treat, if I remember correctly,” he finally addressed Go directly. “And with your birthday coming up, this will be my gift to you,” he announced, holding out his hand for the other boy to come in with him.
Go looked quite helpless, not really knowing what to do.
“You go on,” his father encouraged him. “Not to worry, I’ll be off and… meet a few friends. You know where to find me,” he said, clasping his son’s shoulder shortly, before making his leave.

Go cursed inwardly. What was he supposed to do now?
“So, wanna come in?” Hikaru asked suggestively.
The boy wondered for a moment. Even without the costume and make-up, Hikaru was still a sight. High, well-defined cheek bones, plush lips, smooth skin, delicate hands and a graceful appearance altogether.
“There’s more to see,” Hikaru told him, still grinning.
Go blushed, as he noticed he’d been caught staring.
Hikaru chuckled slightly. “It’s okay,” he told the other boy. “You can look at what you wish to claim.”

“Who said anything about that?!” Go suddenly burst out, his face getting even redder at his out-burst.
Hikaru sighed and shrugged. “What now – are you coming in, or not?”
Go bit his lip nervously. The other boy was dressed only in a slight yukata. A short wave of air gave him a glimpse of a well-defined body and a creamy leg. Gulping once he stepped forward and practically pulled them together back into the building. Once Hikaru got over his surprise, he put some distance between the two of them and straightened up again.
“Very well, then,” he chirped out.
His hand teased the other boy’s face slightly, index finger tilting Go’s face up a bit.
“This way,” Hikaru breathed out and lead the way.

As thought hypnotised, Go followed the other wordlessly, until Hikaru slipped into a rather dark room, closing the door once Go had followed.
“Do you want light?” Hikaru asked casually.
Go took a moment to even grasp the question. Once more he wondered why he had gone with the other boy in the first place.
“Yes,” he finally decided.
The next second he heard fire lighting and a small lamp was lit, another one at the other side of the room shortly after.

“Why don’t you come over here?” Hikaru asked suggestively, as he slipped out of his light robe, letting it fall onto the floor.
Go just kept standing there, staring at the naked boy in front of him. Hikaru grinned inwardly.
“Well, come on,” he urged, holding out his hand.
The other almost had to suppress the urge to shrug away. At that Hikaru blinked.
“Gosh, you… you’ve had sex before, right?” he asked, sounding a bit worried.
“What?! Of course, I have,” Go demanded, shifting uncomfortably.
“Oh,” Hikaru nodded. “Well, good then. You can get to it now, in case you’re wondering.”

“Shut up,” Go demanded harshly, which had Hikaru blink in surprise and slight fear. “Who do you think you’re talking to? I’m not an idiot and I’m by far your superior.”
Hikaru gulped once, then thought of a way to cover up. “Well, the way you acted – I thought you enjoyed that kind of thing,” he explained with a shrug.
Again, Go merely blinked at him and Hikaru sighed. “Seems I was wrong,” he stated. “But you’re… an odd customer.”
“Well, I’ve had sex, but it’s my first time paying for it,” Go tried to justify.
“Strictly spoken, you’re not paying for this one,” Hikaru told him. “And when it’s about that, it’s even simpler. You pay for my services. So, you simply tell me what you want and I’ll do it. That’s the deal,” the boy shrugged.

Go considered him for another moment, nibbling on his own lips nervously. Then his eyes focused on Hikaru again.
“Come here,” he ordered shortly.
The boy obeyed immediately. It still felt awkward, but Go wanted to test what he could really do if he pleased.
“I… I want to kiss you,” he announced, looking at the other.
Hikaru shrugged casually at first. “Then, do it,” he suggested.
Then the meaning of that statement seeped into his mind and he stared. Just as Go was leaning in to cover his lips he backed away.

“Hold on a second,” he requested, holding his hand out slightly to keep some distance. “You want to kiss me?”
Go simply nodded.
“Why?” Hikaru demanded. “I mean… you know what this is about. You don’t have to… you know, do that. Do whatever you please and it’ll be fine.”
“Well, then, I want to kiss,” Go explained firmly. “So, come here, now.”
Hikaru suddenly felt a bit helpless. “But… I don’t do that,” he mumbled out.
Go just stared at him. “What do you mean, you don’t do that? That’s about the most important part to get started. How do you do it without kissing?”

Hikaru sighed in frustration. “So, you can’t without?”
“That doesn’t matter, because I want to kiss,” Go told him firmly. “So, will I get my service now, or not?”
Hikaru sighed again, reluctantly this time. He rarely had to kiss customers and he was grateful for it. It always felt forced and wrong and it was too close for his liking. But then, he should have expected something like that from a guy like him. He caught himself again, straightening up.

“Of course,” he assured the other. “Sorry, it’s just not… a common request.”
“Well, I don’t care,” Go said firmly. “I want to kiss and I want it now.”
“Very well,” Hikaru returned, immediately diving in and capturing the other into a heated kiss.
Go first tried to mumble something, then frowned as he felt a tongue roughly invading his mouth and even started to gag as Hikaru kissed him almost brutally. He pushed the guy away almost forcefully.

Hikaru blinked, panting. “What now?”
Go shook his head. “Not like that.”
“For a first customer who doesn’t pay, you’re quite difficult,” Hikaru groaned out.
The next second he wondered whether Go would actually have his tongue for that sharp remark as he had claimed the other day. It seemed, however, that fortunately the other was pre-occupied with other things.
“Well, you’ll have to give what you offer,” Go told him, closing in on the other again. “I’ll show you what I mean,” he decided. “Close your eyes now and don’t move.”

Hikaru simply obeyed, awaiting what was to come. Then he started slightly as he felt soft lips against his own, giving soft pressure before leaving him again, only to come right back. There were several soft nips, before a firmer, lingering kiss followed. He still kept standing there unmoving. When he felt a wet tongue playing on his lips, he parted them willingly and let the other delve in. The kiss did not exactly grow passionate, seeing how Hikaru was still participating as little as possible. Go seemed to be annoyed by that.
“Move your lips,” he requested silently. “Slowly,” he added, before bringing their lips together again.

Hikaru felt a bit torn, but yet started to return the kiss, slowly, carefully, as he had been asked. Apparently, that appealed to the other, because he felt a soft hand cupping his face, fingers stroking softly. He let the kiss last, giving the other the time to build up the mood. He had a feeling that the boy wasn’t exactly very experienced and thus was too nervous to get easily excited. Go, in the meantime, enjoyed the play of lips with the other guy. Hikaru was pure bliss to all of his senses. When he urged for the kiss to progress further, he met no resistance. On the contrary, Hikaru seemed only too happy that he was moving on. A little sting hit Go at the thought that the other really just must have wanted to get all of this over with. But he wanted him so bad and he was there already and the boy was offering himself, after all. They had a deal. And so, after exploring Hikaru’s mouth thoroughly, Go slowly broke the kiss to attach his lips to the other’s neck and nip at it softly. Once again, Hikaru started.

“What are you doing?” he asked, a bit confused. “You’re buying sex. You don’t have to please me.”
“As you pointed out before,” Go returned sharply, moving away a bit to look at the other, “I’m not exactly buying anything right now. Plus, I enjoy this kind of thing. I like… tasting.”
“You’ve got to be kidding me,” Hikaru growled out, rolling his eyes. He still nodded. “Okay, fine. So long as you understand that it’s still a service. I let you do this. I’m not asking you for it and I’m not explicitly enjoying it.”
“Why are you pointing that out now?” Go asked, sounding annoyed.

“Because it feels like you want to make love,” Hikaru explained. “This is no such thing. If you’re looking for that, find yourself a nice Prince, or something. This is sex. Taking care of urges. No more.”
Go looked firmly at him and sneered. “I’m not an idiot,” he stated flatly. “I know what we’re doing here. I happen to find appeal in your body, so I wish to play with it. If that’s a problem and you’re backing out of the deal…”
“No, no,” Hikaru waved him off. “Sorry, if I misunderstood. Please, by all means, continue.”

Hikaru stretched his neck slightly, offering his flesh and Go, even though he was a bit disturbed by the business-like behaviour of the other, dove right back in. He kissed and licked Hikaru’s neck and throat. As he tried to slide an arm around Hikaru, he frowned and drew back. Just as the actor wanted to bitch at him again, he started to rip off his own clothing. That left Hikaru staring in surprise. He didn’t do or say anything until the other had fully undressed and moved closer again to now slide a bare arm around his waist.
“You really want to make love,” Hikaru said again and his voice was thick with uncertainly.
“Shut up,” Go simply dismissed his thought and moved in for another, more searing kiss.
Hikaru felt his heart skip a beat.

No, no. This is all wrong. What on earth is he thinking?! I’m selling my body, so what does he mean to claim? There’s nothing there to claim anyway. Shit, should I really let him do this? But then, if I refuse, I’ll really be in trouble. Not to mention… it might not be so bad. He might actually really want me to enjoy it.

That thought had Hikaru’s mind even more torn. In a way it was certainly a good thought, less pain was a good thing, after all. At the same time, though, the thought of enjoying this act of offering himself made him panic and feel slightly repulsed by himself. And yet he did not resist, he did not stop soft hands from caressing his body, learning its structure, did not object to a hot mouth that trailed kisses from his chest all the way down to… Hikaru’s eyes flew open.

What on earth is this guy doing?! He bough my services and yet here he is, trying to what – please me? Oh god, what do I do with this?

Completely lost for any other action, Hikaru let his hand slide through the other’s hair, stroking it encouragingly, as Go kissed and licked his dick, making it hard and twitch at the touch. Hikaru moaned his approval, not caring anymore that he really should not be enjoying this – be it because he was simply not supposed to, per definition, or that it was bad for him, personally. He was already in a haze he didn’t know. He had sex a lot, of course, but that was… well, sex. Simple in-and-out matters that took a mere few minutes and some pain to endure. He’d get his pay and go home to have dinner. There he would enjoy being close to Katsumi, but they never did this kind of thing. He didn’t want that.

Sex was business. It was raw. Sometimes brutal. It hurt. And he didn’t want to associate that with Katsumi. He knew, of course, that there were practices that could make them both happy without anyone getting hurt, but there was still this nagging feeling in him that sex was just dirty. And he didn’t want Katsumi dirty. He was such a pure soul and their relationship was the same and he wanted to keep that. As it was, he was confronted with a situation he had never faced before. He was aroused and revelling in the feeling, but he also felt tenderness at the same time as hands and lips kept pleasuring him. His body shook with… what – need? It was embarrassing. He hid his face, trying to muffle his little moans as he tried to calm himself somewhat. Go noticed the other going tense and stopped his exploration of the other’s body to look at him.

“You okay?” he asked, sounding concerned.
The tone annoyed Hikaru. “Yeah,” he snapped. “You’re just taking forever and I want to get home and feed my dog.”
Go blinked. “You have a dog?”
“Well, sort of,” Hikaru shrugged.
“Why?”
“As a pet,” Hikaru explained.

“A dog as a pet?” Go asked, scratching his head. Then he shrugged. “Well, why not?”
“The point is,” Hikaru spoke up again, sounding stern and feeling proud at how well he could hide his own need, “you’re keeping me. Can we get to the point?”
Go looked a bit disappointed, but then nodded and pulled the other close, placing him onto his back.
Hikaru sighed inwardly.

Of course, he wants to look – what did I expect? Why can’t he just fuck me, come, and leave?

He felt almost relieved as he felt a familiar pressure against his hole, pulling his legs up and apart more to aid the other in sliding in. He choked slightly as the head was shoved in. Go gasped in surprise and held his movements. Then he shifted and tried to push in some more. A pained moan escaped Hikaru’s lips and his cock softened at the unpleasant feeling. Go stopped again and sighed.
“Please,” Hikaru finally cried out, “you’re just making it worse. What – do you enjoy torturing me?”
“N-no,” Go stuttered uneasily. “Does it hurt?”

Hikaru groaned and lifted his head to glare at the other. “Want me to stick a Tanto up your ass and see if it hurts?”
Go made a face. “You don’t have to be so rude.”
“Well, of course, it hurts,” Hikaru said exasperatedly. “But that’s really not your problem. So, can’t you just finish?” Hikaru asked, hoping against hope, but expecting the answer he received.
“I don’t want it to hurt,” Go mumbled, drawing back.

Hikaru blinked for a moment, then sat up to look at the other boy. He found Go sitting there rather helpless, maybe pondering to leave without finishing after all. Hikaru couldn’t help a small smile at the sight.
“Very well,” he sighed out, shifting into a crouching position that allowed him to finger himself. “If you insist, I’ll stretch myself.”
Go just stared at him wide-eyed. Hikaru smirked, shifting his hips slightly and moving so the other could clearly see his fingers pushing into his body. He could tell the sight appealed to the other.

“You could do something too,” Hikaru suggested with a wink. “You know, to get this finished.”
Go just blinked at him.
Hikaru shot him a pointed look. “I show you mine…”
At that Go caught on and even though he blushed at the thought, he still gripped his own dick and started to stroke it. Hikaru licked his lips tentatively and Go groaned, imagining those lips in the place of his hand. As the actor was done stretching, he moved over to Go, crawling slightly on top of him.

“Want me to cover it too?” he asked in a suggestive voice. “Get it slippery?”
Go just moaned as an answer, but moaned his approval. Hikaru smirked and bent down to take the other’s dick into his mouth, immediately sucking in earnest.
Go gasped at the intent movements.
“Ah, Hi-hikaru,” he gasped out. “Turn around.”

Hikaru blinked for a second, but did as requested and shifted, so his back now faced the other. Next thing he knew, he felt hands on his buttocks, stroking, slapping lightly, making him moan and move into the caresses. Then his cheeks were spread and his hips urged downwards and he gave way without a thought. Suddenly he jerked, as he felt something warm and soft pressing against him. As he realised that the other was licking him there, he let out a loud moan and let go of the other’s member.
“Oh my god, what are you doing?” Hikaru gasped out.

Go merely turned him around again, laying him back down on his back. As he moved on top of Hikaru, he smirked.
“I think you are the one who hasn’t really had sex before,” he pointed out amusedly.
Unable to think of an appropriately sharp remark to counter that, the actor simply sighed in defeat.
“Then why don’t you introduce me?” he offered, really wanting to… what? Did he really want it to be over? Just that?

His thoughts were interrupted as Go started to push in again, moving with much more ease now that he was stretched and they were both coated in saliva. It didn’t even really hurt. It just stung a bit.
“Okay?” Go asked, once he was fully buried inside the other.
Hikaru merely nodded. “It’s fine. You can do it now.”
Go nodded back at him, shifting a little bit and finally starting to move. Carefully, in slow thrusts. Hikaru actually thought it was rather pleasant, if your walls get stroked like that. It still stung a bit, but the sliding sensation was rather nice. Maybe if they had used some sort of oil…

“Ungh.”
Hikaru gasped as the other sped up his thrusts. It was still not unpleasant. His body had somehow gotten used to the intrusion and so long as he kept his hips up, it didn’t hurt. In fact, it felt rather stimulating. For a moment he wondered whether it would actually be okay for him to come as well. The other had pushed certain buttons and gotten him hot to the point where he wanted to release. He gulped. Should he ask? That was when he felt the other’s hand on his dick, stroking it intently.
“You’re hard,” Go whispered out. “Does it feel good now?”

Feeling incredibly embarrassed, Hikaru merely shifted, trying to somewhat cover his weak nod, but his moans and sighs gave him away.
“Good,” Go said with a smile, thrusting more sharply.
Then Hikaru’s eyes grew a bit wider and he stiffened a bit. Then he shifted slightly, as if to get a certain position. There was something poking in him, but he wasn’t quite sure what it was, or how it worked. It felt strange, but strangely good. He shifted again, trying to get more.
Go panted against him. “What?”

Hikaru bit his lip. “Sorry,” he mumbled out. “Nothing, I’m fine. Just finish.”
It still felt good as the other kept pushing in again and again and Hikaru moaned again, pushing himself the way it felt good to him. Go let him, simply keeping up his own movements and rhythm. Soon he was so excited, he wanted to just slam himself into the other. Hikaru could feel the other was close, but pent up.
“Just finish,” he gasped out.

Sure enough, with a few more pushes Go went over the edge, shuddering in release as his come shot out to coat Hikaru’s inner walls. Go moaned his release, lazily pushing in and out of the other and twitching in pleasure. A minute later he was done. But just as Hikaru thought their session was finally over, he felt a hand on his dick again. He moaned in surprise and need, pushing his hips up into the pleasurable touch. Go groaned at the feel and slid out of the other, shifting away slightly.
“Touch yourself,” he told Hikaru.
The other boy merely blinked at him. “Myself?”

Go nodded firmly at him, sitting down with a curious look on his face.
Hikaru shrugged and got to the task. He grasped his dick and began to pleasure himself. He could feel the other’s eyes on him, watching intensely. It made his skin prickle. He smiled slightly as he sped up his efforts, stroking the head hard and fast. He gasped. Then he heard a moan and looked at the other again to find Go staring at him unashamedly. Hikaru bit his lip.
“Does it feel good?” Go asked in a low voice and this time he was not satisfied with a mere nod. “Tell me,” he demanded.

“It… it’s good,” Hikaru stuttered out in a husky voice.
“It’s good?”
“Yeah,” Hikaru breathed out. “Yeah, it’s good.” He sighed in pleasure.
“Sounds good,” Go mused. “Did you like what I did to you?”
Hikaru’s eyes grew wide at the question. “I… ungh… yeah…”
“Tell me what you liked,” Go demanded, stroking his own member again as well.
Hikaru thought he’d lost his mind. The boy could just take him again, if he wasn’t satisfied just yet and there he was sitting with him, both of them jerking off. Then he remembered the question and tried to voice.

“I… I liked your dick… in me…” Hikaru unconsciously closed his eyes, recalling the sensations. “Moving, stroking… so good,” he breathed and as he heard another moan, that urged him on even more. “There was… something… dull pressure… it felt good when you did that.”
“Yeah?” Go asked, already hard and apparently even close to the edge again.
“Yeah,” Hikaru gasped, as his second hand went to fondle his balls.
“God, you look hot,” Go whispered, speeding up his own hand as he watched as though mesmerized. “Come on.”

Hikaru closed his eyes again, concentrating on the feeling. His fingers tightened a bit around his cock and it made him groan a little.
“Shit, yeah,” Hikaru cursed.
“Uhng,” Go sighed out, shuddering.
At that Hikaru had a flash. Licking his lips he went for an experiment.
“Oh god,” he gasped out, thrusting his hips up into his hand. “Oh yeah, yeah… fuck!”
Another twitch. Hikaru grinned inwardly.

Shit. He gets off on dirty talk. Why, that’s something I can provide.

“Oh yeah, ah, so good… Come on,” Hikaru urged him. “Come again, I wanna see it. I want to feel it, like when you fucked me. Spill it on me and then lick it off.”
Go groaned, his breath hitching.
“It was so good,” Hikaru dragged out, licking his lips again, “when you fucked me. I want you to do it again. Fuck me and fill me and…”
With a small cry the other released once more, his seed spilling all over his hand and onto the floor. Hikaru smirked. Then he concentrated on his own pleasure, hand moving frantically – and then he felt it.
“Oh god, oh god yeah… almost…”

With his mouth open in a silent cry, Hikaru went rigid, only his hips jolting repeatedly and his dick pulsing as he shot his seed out. He sighed in bliss as his hand slowed to slow tentative strokes. He smiled to himself. Paid sex, or not – this had been good. Then he blinked for a second as he thought he heard something shift and the next second he felt soft, slightly swollen lips against his, trying to coax him into a tender kiss. Hikaru thought of something to do and in the end, deciding that it couldn’t get any weirder anymore, started to return the kiss in kind. Go sighed happily and slid down next to Hikaru and before they even knew it they were wrapped around each other, kissing and stroking and enjoying the intimacy the moment had created. At some point they had to separate, though. Go drew back reluctantly, smiling at the other. Hikaru merely looked at him blankly.

“Thank you,” Go said simply, planting another soft kiss on Hikaru’s lips.
“Well, I said it was my treat,” Hikaru returned, sounding insecure.
“You sure know how to run your business,” Go grinned at him. “I will certainly be back.”
On the one hand Hikaru was relieved that the other boy had brought things back to the business line. On the other hand, though, the short moment where he had felt like a lover had made him feel content and now it felt like that was taken from him again. But that was still okay. He’d had a nice session with this guy. And if he kept his promise and came back and it would be like that again, he would certainly look forward to it.

“I’ll be delighted,” Hikaru answered truthfully, a small smile on his face. “But maybe you should run now. Your dad might be wondering.”
Go blinked at that. “Right,” he mumbled out, collecting his clothes and quickly putting them back on again. Once he thought he was done, he checked for all his belongings and put his leather bag into the very last layer of his obi.
“Remembered the trick?” Hikaru remarked, smirking.
“It’s a good one,” Go grinned. “Well, then… see you.”

Hikaru waved him good-bye and with that Go was out the door. With a small sigh Hikaru gathered his robe, made his way back to the changing room and ignoring Saito’s teasing remarks quickly got the rest of his stuff and made his way home. Once he got in, Katsumi came rushing towards him.
“You’re late,” the boy remarked, sounding worried.
Hikaru nodded. “Sorry, I had a new customer.”
“Oh,” Katsumi made, biting his lip. “You okay?”
The older boy nodded again, smiling.

“If you want…” Katsumi whispered to him, pulling Hikaru into his arms and kissing him.
Hikaru answered readily, kissing the other with pleasure, but as they drew back he shook his head slightly.
“Thanks, but… I think I’ll just take a bath and then go to bed. I’m really tired.”
Katsumi blinked, but nodded. “Okay, not a problem. The water might have grown a bit cold, though.”
“Never mind,” Hikaru waved him off. “It’s okay. Or else, I’ll heat it again.”
“Alright, then…”
Katsumi looked after Hikaru and couldn’t help thinking that something felt off.

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All done. ^^ Omg, I made Go a sucker for kink. XDDDDD But somehow I like the idea. And Hikaru beiong so confused... what will he do now? Oh, This is really exciting and I enjoy writing this so much! Hope you liked, new chapter will be up soon, because I'm really so into this! ^^

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