Addicted to LOVE - Chapter 4: The art of finding the truth

[yoru-no-hikaru.livejournal.com]

Pairing: Koichi/multiple, Tsuyoshi/Takeda Shinji
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: Don't own KinKi Kids, or anything JE-related
Warnings: Swearing, angst
Multi-Chapter


Intro: Tsuyoshi has an unexpected visitor - and an unpleasant one too. And a bothered senpai is looking for answers to all the questions in his head - not nearly knowing what he's getting into.


Notes: No sex, no flirting, no Koichi. Sorry. ^^" This one and the next chap will be a bit tough. But finally Koichi's story will be revealed. So, please go ahead and read - even though this is more like the introduction.

“Takizawa-kun,” Tsuyoshi muttered in surprise as he saw the younger man standing in his door.

Then he blinked as he saw the angry glint in the other’s eyes.

“May I help you?” he offered warily.

“Yes,” Tackey told him bluntly. “You can tell me what the fuck is wrong with your partner.”

At that Tsuyoshi blinked again. “Sorry?”

“Can I come in?” the younger man asked in a straight-forward manner.

Tsuyoshi felt highly uncomfortable with the entire situation, but even so held his door open to let the other come in.

“Tea?” the older man offered, more out of a habit than an actual desire to host the other.

“Yes, thanks,” Tackey nodded.

Tsuyoshi nodded back and made his way into the kitchen.

“Just sit down in the living room, I’ll be there in a minute.”

Tackey moved on into the living room. He blinked when he saw the furniture. There was a couch, but looking at it, he didn’t really trust it to carry his weight. Other than that there were two beanbag chairs and a weird, if comfortable looking version of one of those modern porch swings – single-seater, the seat made of rattan, covered with cosy looking white pillows, hanging on four ropes and dangling from a artistic looking steel construction. Biting his lips, he weighed his options. Finally he decided to occupy one of the beanbag chairs, waiting for Tsuyoshi to show. About two minutes later the other man appeared, a tablet in hands that held a tea can and two small cups, neatly put upside down, like you would see in a good restaurant. He swiftly sat down on the small couch, apparently having full confidence in its structure.

“Hai, douzo,” Tsuyoshi nodded, as he took one of the cups and poured his guest some tea, then offering the small item to Tackey. The younger man nodded politely, accepting the cup and taking a small sip. It was quite hot, but it felt good.

“Okay,” Tsuyoshi spoke up, not making any move to pour anything for himself. “What is it that you want now?”

“Do you know Koichi and I have something going?” Tackey asked directly.

The older man blinked at him in surprise, but then nodded carefully.

“Do you know Koichi and Uchi-kun have something going?”

The sigh that escaped Tsuyoshi’s lips was all the answer Tackey needed.

“I see,” the younger man nodded curtly. “And you simply accept that?”

“What exactly do you want me to do about it?” Tsuyoshi asked defensively. “Believe me, I certainly don’t like what he’s doing, but it’s not like I can change it.”

“Well, this is different,” Tackey told him sternly. “You know Uchi has a boyfriend.”

“Yes,” Tsuyoshi sighed.

“What’s Koichi on about?” Tackey wanted to know.

“Are you really fit to judge other people’s sex-lives?” Tsuyoshi asked back with a sneer. “Don’t you just keep him around for the good occasional fuck as well?”

“Tsuyoshi-kun, I am not stupid,” Tackey shot at the other. “I know something is off, and I demand to know what it is. You don’t know what I’ve witnessed these past few days.”

“Well, then, enlighten me,” Tsuyoshi dared, crossing his arms over his chest.

“Right,” Tackey glared at him.

*flashback*

“Hai, moshi moshi,” Tackey answered his phone, as he muted his TV.

“Ano… sorry to disturb you, Takizawa-kun,” the voice on the other end mumbled shyly.

Tackey frowned slightly. “Who is this?”

“Oh, sorry,” the voice blurted into his ear, “Uchi Hiroki.”

“Uchi-kun,” Tackey repeated, surprised. “What is it?”

“I…” Uchi tried, but broke off. He sighed. “I’m really sorry to bother you like this, but… can we meet?”

“What – now?” Tackey asked, his frown growing deeper.

“Please,” was the weak answer he received.

“Where are you now?” the older man wanted to know.

“I’m in the theatre,” Uchi told him.

“Ah, Imperial Garden?”

“Yeah.”

“Okay, stay there, I’ll be right over,” Tackey told him. He could hear a silent “Thanks.” as he clapped his phone shut.

Quickly he got up, grabbed his wallet and keys and the moment later he was already out the door.

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“Ah, Uchi-kun,” Tackey sighed out as he came almost running into the practice area.

“Thanks for coming,” Uchi said, smiling sadly.

“Okay,” Tackey stated firmly as he sat down on the ground next to the younger man, “now tell me why you called me here? Why are you even still in here, all by yourself?”

“Well, everybody else left,” Uchi shrugged. “And I… wanted to be alone.”

“So you called me,” Tackey analysed.

“No, I mean,” Uchi stuttered, then sighed. “I’m sorry. I mean, I didn’t want to see anyone from SHOCK, but I have to… talk to someone.”

“Fine then,” the older man said with a smile. “I’ll listen.”

“You will hate me,” Uchi sighed out sadly, “but I simply don’t know who else to talk to.”

“I’ll hate you?” Tackey asked, blinking. “Okay, just what is going on?”

Uchi sighed once more. His eyes shone with tears and he rubbed his eyes angrily against the offending liquid.

“I… did something stupid,” he stated simply.

Tackey looked at him for a moment, considering Uchi miserable looking figure. He had an idea where this was going and he felt his stomach twist at the thought.

“How stupid?” he asked, trying to approach the issue carefully.

“Really stupid,” Uchi told him. “The stupidest I could have done.”

“Just say it already,” Tackey demanded, “I won’t go guessing.”

“I slept with someone,” Uchi choked out.

“Someone who is not Matsuzaki,” Tackey wanted to confirm.

A weak nod came as an answer.

Tackey sighed. “Well, you won’t get an award for that,” he told the younger.

“I know,” Uchi said miserably. “I don’t even know why… how… but somehow I can’t help it. And now it’s really bad. I’ve gotten myself into this and when he approaches me… I don’t know, something happens with me and I… I just can’t resist. Even though I know he’s not after anything serious. I just…”

“Hold on, there,” Tackey interrupted him, giving Uchi a glare. “What – we’re not talking about `something stupid´, but an actual affair?”

“I guess it became an affair today,” Uchi admitted, looking guilty. “It’s like I don’t even know what I’m doing. I… I love Yu. Really. Just…” He sighed, shaking his head.

“Well, if you love Matsuzaki, what’s your motivation?” Tackey asked him.

“I… don’t know…” the younger man mumbled.

“Stop pretending,” Tackey demanded harshly. “You know very well why you’re doing what you’re doing. Just be honest, at least with me, it’s not like I’m gonna tell anyone. But how do you plan to work this out if you refuse to face the issue?”

“Well,” Uchi mused, licking his lips. “I guess… When being honest… I know this is bad, really bad, but… it’s just that… he does things to me. The most incredible things. You know, when having sex. I’ve never felt like that and it keeps coming to my mind and when he touched me, I remembered and I just wanted… that. He makes me feel wanted and hot and… the way he touches me… it’s so good and I don’t have that with anyone else… I’m such an asshole.”

Tackey didn’t answer immediately. He tried to process all that he’d been told, trying to stay calm and not judge Uchi for his wrong doing. He could tell that it was just not the time to do that.

“Uchi-kun,” he finally dragged out, “I… I can’t say I’m happy to hear any of this. And please don’t ask me to tell you that it’s not all that bad, or not your fault, or shit like that. When you cheat on your boyfriend, you’re fucking up big time.”

“I know,” Uchi mumbled, voice cracking.

Tackey couldn’t help rolling his eyes. Sometimes Uchi was really too sensitive. But then he really tried to remain calm and understanding.

“What do I do now?” Uchi asked helplessly.

“Well… it’s unfair if you keep this affair up, you can’t do that to Matsuzaki. So your options are quite clear. Either finish the affair, or break up with your boyfriend and try your luck with that other guy.”

“Number two is not an option,” Uchi sighed out.

“No?”

“It’s Koichi,” Uchi finally blurted out. “I’m having an affair with Koichi.”

At that Tackey’s eyes shot open widely.

“WHAT?!?!?!”

Uchi jumped at the out-burst, shrinking away from the older man.

“Koichi,” Tackey repeated muttering, shaking his head. “With Koichi?”

Uchi nodded. “And I want to stop it. Really.”

“Well, then do that,” Tackey told him.

“I will,” Uchi told him. “Just… I cannot change what I have done already.”

“That much would be true,” the older man mused.

“And I’m really scared he’ll break up with me if I tell him,” Uchi sighed out.

“Then don’t,” Tackey told him simply.

At that Uchi blinked at him. “Eh?”

“Well, there’s no gain in it,” Tackey shrugged. “As you’ve said, it’s done now and you can’t exactly change it. If you truly regret it and go back to loving only Matsuzaki, there’s no point in hurting him like that. So, just leave it.”

“Is that really okay?” Uchi asked doubtfully.

“Why, it’s certainly not okay,” Tackey answered, “but in a situation like this, you should evaluate the least possible damage and that is to simply dismiss the whole thing as it is and never talk of it again.”

Uchi sighed, sinking his head. Then he nodded.

“Yeah, I guess you’re right,” he decided. “I just hope I can live with it like this.”

“I don’t know about that,” Tackey told him. “But I can tell you that I’ll give a certain someone a decent piece of my mind. Playing around with other singles is one thing, but going for someone’s boyfriend is definitely shabby.”

“Thank you, Tackey,” Uchi said, smiling a bit more brightly.

Tackey smiled back at him and clasped his shoulder reassuringly before he got up and left the room.

*end flashback*

“Okay, so Koichi messed with one of his co-actors,” Tsuyoshi huffed agitatedly. “I said I don’t like it, but what do you expect me to do?”

“Right now I merely want you to answer,” Tackey said intensely. “What the fuck is Koichi’s problem?”

“Why do you think he’s got a bigger problem than you do?” Tsuyoshi asked bitingly.

“Because the story doesn’t end there,” Tackey bit back at him.

At that Tsuyoshi blinked.

“Oh,” the younger man smirked. “Finally hit a nerve? Seems you don’t know everything that’s going on with your oh-so-precious soul-mate?”

“Stop making fun of me,” Tsuyoshi demanded, “or of my relationships. Say what you want to say.”

“Very well, then listen to that,” Tackey scoffed at him. “I went to confront Koichi today at the Jimusho. And guess what…”

*flashback*

Eh?

“Oh yeah, right there.”

Koichi?

“Koichi, sorry, I don’t think I’ll last…”

Wha- is that?!

“It’s okay. Come.”

What the…?!

“More!”

What on earth is going on in there? Well, I mean, I guess it’s pretty obvious. But really… Another one, yet again? And… is it really him? Did someone just say Ramen? Oh, better hide…

*end flashback*

“And he came out of the dressing room with Nishikido-kun,” Tackey finished his tale, “and they both looked exactly like what it sounded like what they’d been doing in there.”

Tsuyoshi was just staring off into space, not moving or saying anything.

“So, don’t tell me there’s nothing wrong,” Tackey continued. “This is definitely not normal. And, you know, some messing is fine. But he just keeps messing more and more and when he’s messing with my juniors, I most certainly have a problem with it. So tell me now what’s going on. I know you know. Tell me. I’m not leaving before I got some information.”

“Okay,” Tsuyoshi finally sighed out, now grabbing the second cup and pouring some tea for himself as well. “I’ll tell you a few stories now too, okay? I think then you’ll understand what’s going on. But believe me, you won’t like it. And, believe it, or not, but you are part of the problem. You might not even ever have realised it, but you are.”

“Just tell me already,” Tackey said agitatedly.

Tsuyoshi nodded, sipping on his tea, before putting the cup down onto the small table.

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Cliffhanger, I know. But the story will take quite some room, so I'll cut here. Next chapter is almost done too, though, so I won't take long. Please wait for the next one. *cheers*

Chapter 3

Chapter 5