authors_paradise | East to West, Shadow to Light, 先 to 後, Me to You

Pairing: TakkiRyo
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: Not mine. Well, the idea is, but the characters are not.
Warnings: swearing, slight angst, sexual contens (I know you've been waiting for it ^_~)
Multi-chapter

Intro: Trapped in an impossible situation, Ryo and Takki simply let things run. They seem to run well too. But then they both realise that once things are rolling, there's no stopping them again. Just... they deal with it in very different ways...

Note: I AM BACK!!!!!!!!! Sorry for the severe delay! I've been sort of offline. At least not online "enough" to update. Gomen, gomen! But now I'm back with extra smut and multi-update. ^^ I hope you enjoy. Greetings to Vivi, I hope you're okay, dear! Okay now, let's get on with the interesting part.

Takki’s heart swelled and his stomach fluttered wildly. He couldn’t believe this was actually happening. And Ryo had even initiated it. Ryo wanted this. He wanted it. But how? Not wanting to think on that too much, Takki pulled Ryo closer, cupping the slighter man’s face softly, tilting his head just so. The other adjusted willingly, letting out a light sigh. The sensations overwhelmed Ryo, making his head spin. He liked this. He wanted it. The why and how of the fact were nagging at the back of his head, but the questions and doubts were annoying, especially compared to a warm body close to his and soft lips against his own. He would think about it later. Right now he wanted to enjoy.

Their kiss grew more heated as both of them delved into the pleasurable feeling. Before they even knew it, they were snogging thoroughly, even starting to fumble randomly. At some point the kissing got too heated for Takki, though, and he drew back a little. He nipped at the other’s lips playfully.
“Take it a bit slower, please,” he asked silently.
Ryo smiled against his lips and nodded before resuming their kiss, making it smoother, but no less passionate. Never sparing a thought on why they were doing this, where to move from there and what the consequences might be, they just kept moving forward. Stopping was not an option. Not in that situation. If it stopped, there would be huge damage.

Takki felt his chest tighten at the thought of what might happen once their haze was over and reality would crash on them brutally. But then, the damage was done anyway, right? There was no undoing it now. And Ryo had been the one to break down the wall that had separated them, but that had also kept the ceiling from collapsing on them. Now that they were surrounded by the broken pieces of their shared space, the only thing they could do to at least hope to find something once they saw the catastrophe, was to try and create something new with this mess they had ended up in. And the only thing Takki could think of was to hold onto Ryo himself.

Finally, in an act of desperation, almost scared that Ryo would run after all, he let his hands roam over the younger’s chest, gripping his shirt playfully, suggesting he wanted the item off. A question asked without words, a request for permission. Ryo felt the hands on his body and squirmed. He had a flash which made him realize that he had gotten himself into something he was absolutely not ready for. But he was even more afraid of drawing back now than of moving on, wherever that might lead him. The hands were soft and promising and deciding that since there was no turning back, no lying, no denying, he could just as well get the most out of it. Was it selfish? The thought was lost when Ryo heard Takki’s sigh of approval as the younger shifted willingly and helped the other with removing his shirt.

A soft moan escaped him when he felt eager hands on his skin, roaming, stroking, feeling him up in a way that made him feel wanted like he had never felt before. All of a sudden his doubts, his questions were gone and he marvelled at the new exciting feel this had. It was… different. He had quite some experience. Not that he thought it was worth boasting about, but he had certainly had some good sessions. However, nothing compared to this. Not that it was outstandingly the best making out he’d ever had. It was just so… well, different. The hands on him were demanding and yet soothing at the same time.

He had never felt like that, never been touched like that. He sighed in delight, gripping at Takki’s shirt involuntarily and the older boy understood that as his own cue. Drawing back and leaving Ryo’s neck he straightened enough to get rid of the cloth. He wanted to dig in again immediately, but before he could, their eyes met. If there was a moment to stop this madness, this was it. Takki gulped, suddenly unsure how to continue. He licked his lips nervously. Then he blinked as he saw Ryo following the movement with an amazed look on his face. Thinking he had gone mad altogether, Takki moved in on Ryo, crawling half way on top of him, one of his legs settling between the other’s.

Feeling relieved that his advances were not stopped, even when they weren’t frantic and hurried, he gently pushed at the other’s shoulder and Ryo readily gave way to rest his back on the sofa. Takki hovered over him and it felt a bit strange. Not that he’d never been in such a position, but the feel was different and strange somehow. That was the moment Takki decided to slide down onto him and that made the feeling even weirder. A flat hard chest pressing against his and a strong weight pressing him into the furniture. The sensation was unusually powerful and he couldn’t do anything but stare up at the other, wondering what might happen next. Takki smiled down at him lovingly. He pushed forward enough to rest his elbows above Ryo’s shoulders on the couch, his fingers finding Ryo’s hair and playing with it softly.

“Ryo,” Takki whispered.
His name was the first word that was uttered ever since this had started and the addressed boy listened intensely.
“I don’t know why you did that,” Takki continued in a low, soothing voice, still curling Ryo’s hair. “But let me tell you, it was definitely a dream come true. I just want you to know…” Takki sighed sadly, starting to stroke the other’s face softly.
“Yes?” Ryo breathed, the sensations overwhelming him.
Nobody had ever touched him with such tenderness. Among the girls he’d been with there had certainly been some of the touching type. They had roamed his body and held onto him and stroked him effectively. But never once had he been treated like this, like… he lacked a good word there, but it didn’t really matter and he still had to concentrate on Takki’s words.
“Just please,” Takki said smiling, “be very sure that you want to do this. I couldn’t handle you regretting what we might do here.”

“Takki,” Ryo breathed.
It was all he could utter. The soft hands on his face, the reassuring words in his ear, the tenderness of the other’s voice, still asking for permission when he could already feel against his body what Takki really wanted… He gasped. For the first time he noticed that feeling Takki getting hard against him had had an effect on his body. He almost panicked at the realisation. But then Takki’s presence engulfed him fully again. Hands, breath and body that felt pleasant against him, that felt exciting, that had gotten him hard. All of that was more than just an indicator that he indeed wanted this just a much. He was still not sure why, or how exactly, but the older boy was so loving, so careful, so intent on his feeling good, why should he deny him to continue with what they apparently both found more than pleasant?
“I want it,” he rasped out.

And saying it broke the spell. Suddenly he felt almost stupid for even dwelling on such meaningless questions like why, or how. What did it matter? It felt good, Takki was only too willing to please him in every way he could and so long as they both wanted and enjoyed it, wasn’t that all the reason he needed? Feeling a weight being lifted from him he hadn’t realised was there, he started to savour the other’s body just as the other did with him. His hands roamed over Takki’s unfamiliar body and it was different to the touch. Unknown, somehow. But not in an unpleasant way, more like something that felt nice to discover for himself. Takki approved of the other’s change in attitude with a low moan, moving against Ryo’s body and making him gasp.

“Uhn,” the younger boy whined lightly.
“Hm?” Takki hummed out absentmindedly, too occupied with creating friction to voice coherently.
“T-takki, I…” Ryo gulped, feeling embarrassed.
The rubbing against his body stopped and he wanted to whine again, but he swallowed the sound when he found Takki’s eyes on his.
“Something wrong?” the older boy asked, sounding a bit breathless.
Seeing how Takki’s cheeks were painted with a decorative reddish flush made him feel less ridiculous.
“Ano…” he licked his lips. “My pants kinda… hurt.”

“Oh,” Takki sighed, feeling even more excited. “Well, do you perhaps… want to remove them?”
He was still careful about his approach, not wanting to scare the other away. Little did he know that Ryo was having the exactly same thoughts and that Ryo’s own cautiousness wasn’t a needless thing.
“That… might help,” Ryo offered in a small voice, blushing a bit.
Takki nipped lovingly at his flushed cheekbones and Ryo closed his eyes in delight, savouring the attention he received.

“Let me help you, then,” Takki said, almost a bit too eager, but by the time his hands were on the other’s pants he had already gotten hold of his actions again.
It was very obvious that Takki had removed a lot of pants before and for a second Ryo felt a slight sting, wondering how many other guys Takki had had right there. The older man looked up at him when he felt the other stopped helping him, blinking at Ryo’s eyes.
“What now?”
“Nothing,” Ryo assured him quickly.
Too bad his voice broke over that single word and his eyes turned away slightly.

“What is it?” Takki insisted.
Ryo pressed his lips together, still not looking at the other, who still had his hands half inside his pants.
“How many guys have you undressed here?” Ryo asked plainly, feeling a bit guilty for bringing something like that up in such a moment.
Much to his surprise Takki merely grinned. “You think I’m a man-eater?” he asked, sounding amused.
“That’s not what I mean,” Ryo muttered, blushing again.

“Well, you’d be surprised how vague my appeal to other men is,” Takki chuckled. “I can tell you how many exactly. I’ll give you the names too, if you like. Or, if it would make you feel better, I’ll take you to my bed… I really don’t do that a lot.”
Ryo looked at him in surprise. First he wondered who would possibly deny such a sweet and nice and loving and… well… hot guy. Then he smiled as Takki’s offer seeped into his mind. He gave a short nod and Takki removed himself from the other and helped him up. They hurried out of the living room, and soon found themselves right in front of Takki’s bed.

The older boy bit his lip. “Shit, I didn’t change the covers…” he mused silently.
“Not a problem,” Ryo assured him. “Nothing on there that we won’t have anyway, right?”
“Well,” Takki mused, but still looked displeased.
“It’s really okay,” Ryo assured him. “I sleep on mine too.”
Takki chuckled a bit at that and nodded. “Okay.”

He sat down on his bed, reaching out for Ryo. As he wanted to draw the boy down and lay him down again, Ryo escaped his grip and changed the game. He pushed at Takki and the older boy gave him a look of surprise, but scooted back obediently, lying down on the mattress. Ryo was on top of him the next second, looking down at Takki, taking in the new picture. It felt exciting that Takki offered himself so willingly for whatever he might be up to. He licked his lips shortly, then bent down to give an experimental lick to the other’s chest. He thought for a second that Takki might have enjoyed him playing with his neck, but Ryo knew necks, he’d had a lot of them.

The chest, however, was new. It was sinewy and strong and it flexed interestingly at his touch. He smiled, deciding to discover that new territory, leaning down on Takki’s body, kissing and nipping Takki’s chest, teasing his nipples and stroking his toned abs. The older boy sighed and moaned his approval, stroking Ryo’s hair, guiding the boy a little bit this way, or that, enjoying the little game. He hadn’t had such an intent and enthusiastic lover in forever. Not to mention that he had not lied before and his variety of lovers wasn’t too big in the first place.

Ryo was very attentive. Unusually so. At least nothing Takki was used to. He froze at the thought that hit him then. Of course, Ryo was used to touching girls. That was what he normally did. So that was how he touched Takki now as well. And as pleasant as it was, it reminded the older man that this was not what Ryo normally did. But just for now he decided to enjoy it while he got it. Ryo had clearly stated that he wanted this. And if he treated him like a girl, that was just as well. In that exact moment Ryo finally reached Takki’s pants. Tugging at them roughly he opened the buttons in hurried movements. No zipper. Button jeans. Well, Takki was the stylish type.

“Next time you invite me over to your house, put on one of your stage changing pants,” Ryo panted out.
Takki chuckled at that, helping the other, before his hands flew to open Ryo’s pants as well. They looked at each other for a second, then both moved to remove their pants and underwear. Once they were completely naked, Ryo stared at Takki.
“Good? Bad? Weird?” Takki offered, trying to sound amused, when he was really scared of the other’s reaction.
“Er… good,” Ryo decided. “Just… wow.”
“It’s not exactly huge,” Takki shrugged.

Ryo just shook his head. “That’s not what I…” he stopped, blushing. “I mean… I’ve never seen another’s… like this.”
Takki bit his lip nervously. He was hard and really into this and didn’t want to scare the other off, so he didn’t really know how to move on. Just as he decided to dash forward again, Ryo helped him out.
“Can I… touch it?” the younger boy asked almost innocently.
“Of course,” Takki nodded, settling back onto the bed. “Come here.”

Ryo kept looking at his cock as though it was something really fascinating, then reached out his hand and gripped him carefully. A slight jerk in his hand gave away his surprise. It didn’t unsettle him, though. He adjusted his hand and gave a few light strokes, making Takki shiver at the sensation. Ryo looked even more amazed, thinking it was really nice to see the other’s reaction to his touch.
“Ah, Ryo,” Takki sighed. “What… what do we do now?”
Ryo stopped, blinking. “What do you mean?”
Takki grinned helplessly. “Well, is this what you want to do? I can pull you too,” he offered. “Or I can blow you, if you like.”

Ryo inhaled sharply at that suggestion. Takki chuckled.
“Aw, you like that?” he crooned, pushing Ryo back and onto the bed, making him spread his legs. “I’ll make it good for you,” he promised.
Ryo pushed up onto his elbows just in time to see Takki roll his tongue over the head of his dick and pleasure ran through his body and made him shiver. Takki’s hand skilfully massaged his balls, while his lips closed around his dick, first coating it thoroughly, then starting to bob up and down. Ryo jerked slightly when he felt a sensitive spot teased by a hot tongue. Then Takki’s eyes moved up and were on his, his glare smouldering and wanting and Ryo moaned, falling back onto the bed, squirming a little.

Takki’s mouth did the most amazing things to him and he almost felt a bit guilty, because there was no way he would do that for the other man – not that night anyway. He felt flush with delight at the thought of doing this with Takki again. And then again. Then his mind set back on what was currently happening between them. Takki sucked on him hard and it made him feel light headed. Just when he was about to ask the other to stop, Takki let go of him, but he didn’t move back up. He settled a bit lower, pushing Ryo’s hips up and spreading his cheeks, daringly licking over the younger man’s hole. Ryo moaned in surprise.
“Oh my god,” he gasped, suddenly heaving.

“I can finish sucking you,” Takki told him with a low voice. “Or I can show you something else that feels really good. What do you want?”
Without even thinking about it, Ryo moaned in approval.
“Do that again,” he pleaded, offering more of himself to the other.
Takki grinned happily and drove right back into his task. He licked Ryo’s opening thoroughly, pushed at it gently, sucked at the sensitive skin and Ryo shuddered at the unknown sensations that washed over him.
“Oh god,” he moaned feverishly. “Oh god, what… what are you doing to me? Ah…”

Ryo was lost, his dick pulsing insistently, his body flush, his breath laboured. Takki loved the way Ryo reacted to his ministrations. Intent on pleasuring the other even more he sneaked his bottle of lube out of his drawer. Just as Ryo was about to complain about the loss of contact, Takki was right back, now slick fingers teasing Ryo and before he could really muse what was happening, Takki gently pushed into him. Ryo gasped in surprise and stiffened.
“What are you doing?” he asked, sounding a bit wary.
“Don’t worry,” Takki said. “It’ll feel really good if you let me do this.”

Ryo shifted uncomfortably, not used to the feeling of intrusion.
“If you don’t like it, I’ll stop,” Takki reassured him.
“I don’t think I like it,” Ryo told him.
Takki though about that for a second, but then moved his finger slightly.
“Once you’re sure about it, you can tell me,” he decided, trying to make the other adjust quickly.

Ryo panted a bit, trying to assess the new sensation. It felt a bit off, but it wasn’t exactly what one would call unpleasant, so for the moment he decided to let Takki continue. All the things he had done to him had brought him great pleasure and he trusted Takki to keep his track. He felt he got stretched even more and bit his lip, not really knowing what to think, or feel. He shifted a little bit and Takki stopped for a moment. Then his face was over Ryo’s again, a soft smile on his face.
“Tell me when it feels good, okay?” he asked.
Ryo nodded and tried to concentrate on what Takki’s fingers did inside of his body. Stretching, probing, pushing, rubbing…

“There’s good,” Ryo breathed, when he felt a push go into something soft inside him.
Takki angled his fingers, crooking them and pushing in and up. He grinned. There it was, he could feel it pushing back into his fingers.
Ryo’s eyes shot open and his hips bucked sharply. His mouth fell open, but no sound would come out, only a harsh gasp. Then his eyes rolled back and he squirmed, pushing his hips into the fingers teasing his prostate.

“Oh god, oh god… oh goooooood,” he whined, sounding almost pained, but his words left no doubt about his feelings. “Oh god, don’t stop! What the fuck?! Don’t stop. More! Please!”
He trashed and begged, the sensations almost too much for him. Takki marvelled at the picture in awe.
“I’ll make you come, if you want me to,” Takki rasped out. “But… I mean, if you’ll let me…”
Ryo was totally out of it. He knew he wasn’t thinking rationally, most probably not at all – otherwise the thought of allowing another man into his body would at least have raised doubts inside him. But Takki had done a thorough job in already making him addicted to the other’s body and touch.

“Okay,” he breathed out.
Takki stared for a second. “Yeah?”
Ryo just nodded. “Just… hurry, okay?”
Takki didn’t have to be told twice. He drew back almost too quickly to get a condom, put it on and coat himself thoroughly.
“It might still hurt a bit,” he told the other as he positioned himself carefully.
“Yeah, whatever,” Ryo groaned impatiently. “Just do it already.”
Takki grinned and made to push in carefully. He halted for as second.

“Ryo,” he asked in a low voice,” Please, raise your hips some more.”
The other did as he was told, but when Takki pushed his legs up and apart, he gasped.
“Takki,” Ryo breathed out. “That feels a bit…” he blushed.
Takki nodded at him. “Yes, I understand. But that’s the way it works. Try not to think about it, okay?”
Ryo took a deep breath and let Takki proceed. When he felt the other push into him, his body protested, an uncomfortably pulsing feeling spreading around his opening.

“It’ll pass,” Takki promised into his ear, his hands stroking the younger’s hair softly, just as he had done on the couch before and Ryo was lost to the sensation. Finally he found the word he had been looking for before. He felt treasured. It made his heart swell and the loving attention made him endure the feeling of first intrusion with close to no pain. And once Takki felt the other loosening a bit, he pushed in some more, gasping at the feeling.
Ryo squirmed.
“Tell me if it hurts, okay?” Takki said lovingly.
Ryo, however, was already beyond thinking about stopping. He held onto the other, wanting him closer.

“It’s okay,” Ryo assured him. “Please, make me feel good.”
Takki melted at the request and carefully tried to angle himself so he would hit Ryo’s spot.
“I said it’s okay,” Ryo told him.
“If I go any deeper, I won’t hit it,” Takki told him. “Not to worry, this is beyond good, really.”
Ryo nodded t him, letting the older proceed. Takki gave a few slow thrusts, trying to help Ryo getting used to the feeling. The other, however, sighed in frustration.

“No,” he complained weakly. “That’s not what I want. I… more,” he muttered out helplessly.
“I really want to make it good for you,” Takki told him, still holding back, afraid he might hurt the other.
“Then… do it already. This is just teasing. Do it right,” Ryo demanded.
Takki sighed in frustration. “Ryo… I don’t know what I’ll do.”
“Whatever you do,” Ryo sighed back, “I know I’ll love it. Just do something already.”
Taking a deep breath, Takki shifted forward more forcefully, giving long thrusts. Ryo gasped at the feeling, trying to push back against the other.
“Not too deep,” Takki gasped out. “I won’t hit it.”
“Shit, Takki. Forget about that already,” Ryo demanded harshly. “Just fuck me!”

The words worked magic on both of them. Ryo felt his heart racing even faster as he realised that he really wanted this, unashamedly asking for it. Takki bit his lip at the lustful gaze Ryo shot at him, his words running through his body like a caress he’d been longing for. He groaned as he shifted forward, moving to meet the other’s demands, hips moving freely, pushing demandingly into the other, making his own excitement grow again as well. Ryo sighed in relief as he felt the other’s demanding movements pushing into his body. He moaned, arching his body just so, making Takki hit his prostate again.
“Oh god, yeah,” he moaned in delight.

Takki caught on quickly, thrusting a bit harder, then staying buried inside the other and wiggling his hips to rub the other’s sweet spot. Ryo moaned loudly at the sensation. Nothing had ever felt like this. Having sex like that was beyond anything he could have imagined. His entire body was hot with pleasure, he was getting stimulation inside and out and his partner was so intent on pleasuring him it was almost too much.
“Takki,” he sighed, unable to voice anymore.
Smiling knowingly, Takki gripped Ryo’s dick, stroking it in hard fast jerks.
“Oh my god,” Ryo whispered breathlessly. “Oh god, yes, yes, please… More! More! Almost…”

Takki gave another few sharp bucks and that did it. Ryo went completely still under him for a moment, his body tensing almost painfully, before releasing in pleasurable shudders, twitching and spurting his seed out onto Takki’s hand, their bodies and the sheets. Takki made sure to allow him to ride the feeling out completely, giving slow, soft strokes until Ryo stopped to shudder and merely panted and sighed satedly. Then he shifted forward, over Ryo and covering his body. He went to whisper into his ear.
“Ryo,” he said softly. “I… please, can I finish?”

Still incoherent, Ryo simply nodded, pulling the other closer. Takki sighed in relief and started to move again, thrusting deep now. He kept checking Ryo’s face for signs of discomfort, but the other seemed still out with his orgasm and so he moved freely, bucking sharply into the other. He groaned at the sensation. Ryo was hot all around him and his hands were roaming over his back lazily. It didn’t take long for him to reach his climax too, a breathless gasp escaping him as he jerked into the other, making Ryo wince slightly in discomfort. It only lasted a few seconds, though, then Takki sighed in delight, just sliding in a few more times slowly to savour the feeling. Then he slid out carefully and Ryo made another displeased sound.

Takki knew it could be weird if your partner drew back out, so he pulled the slighter man into his arms, hugging him tightly and stroking his back lovingly. Sure enough, Ryo delved into the pleasurable sensations, hugging the other man back, letting his own hands roam the other’s body as well. Takki smiled. He never would have dreamed this would ever happen – let alone tonight. He quickly discarded the spoilt condom randomly onto the floor before he pulled the covers over both of them and letting Ryo settle against his body. The younger boy smiled. He liked that. Soothing strokes on his body after it had been under such strong sensations. He could definitely get used to that. Takki smiled too at the man in his arms, wondering how they had ended up like this, but deciding that he could still think about that the next morning.

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Ryo woke up with a slight discomfort in his butt, but with a warm and relaxed feeling still coursing through his body. And as he remembered all the sensations and feeling of last night, a smile came to his face and he turned around to snuggle up against Takki’s warm body again. As he turned around, he blinked, however. He was alone on the bed. He shifted a little bit, scratching his head and checking the watch. Had he slept in? It was bit later than usual, but nowhere near time to leave the house for work. He mused – maybe Takki was in the shower? Preparing breakfast? Then his gaze fell upon a small note that had been felt on the night stand. He took it and his heart jumped painfully at the words he found on it.

Ryo, I’m sorry about what happened. I had no right to take advantage of your confusion. Please, don’t hate me. I’m sure you’ll soon find your way back to the world that you know and love. There is no need to worry about me, I’ll be fine in my own. Just, maybe we should not meet for a while. Really, I’m really sorry. – Takki

Ryo’s eyes stung with tears. His fingers gripped the note tightly, crumbling it.

What on earth is he thinking?! “My world”?! Fuck that! What is he taking me for?! He lets me follow him home, kiss him, touch him, he takes me to his bed, shows me a new world that I have never known – and now he throws me out again?!

He wiped his eyes, sighing sadly. He sniffed once, twice, then groaned in annoyance and grabbed his cell phone out of his pants.
“Hey,” he said as someone picked up at the other line. “No, I… Listen, something happened.” A short pause. “You had better sit down…”

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So, chap 4 is done. I hope you like it. ^^ Cliffhanger is evil. Go right ahead and check out the next chapter. :D

Chapter 3

Chapter 5